How will you die..?

Today we've had a wonderful day. Like WONDERFUL. Now you might think, oh well you're on vacation and the sun is shining, yeah yeah we've heard it before.. ;)

But today was different. I mean, it started a bit stressful since we both (Ebbe and I) love to stay up late and to sleeeeeeep in the mornings. But rise and shine cause we had made a playdate on the beach. Packing, eating breakfast, making beach pancakes, finding all swimming clothes and gear, SPF and so on.. You know the drill, could break the toughest at times if not going your way. X-)

Anyhow, great day at the beach, but a bit cloudy in the end so we went home. I unpacked, made afternoon snacks, made the dishes, laundry, sent a few invoices and paid a few ...jada jada, stuff we all do at home basically. But then something happened. I am certain time froze.

Now you might be expecting something spectacular but no. Sorry. It's just that I felt like a child almost. Well, no that's maybe not it, but you know when you have no agenda for the day (evening in this case). Like NO agenda. Maybe you get that a lot? I don't. I found myself in some kind of parallel universe feeling like I had tricked time. Like I could do anything and the choice was mine. As it IS every day - every year - we all have the fortune to spend as free and healthy people, right? I usually don't see it like that. I usually don't see. I work. I W.O.R.K.

Unfortunately I don't usually raise my gaze and look at right now, what's ahead of me, and where I want to go. And I do not mean the sillyness in setting a goal like "what/where/who I will be 5 yrs from now"-kind of thing (yawn). I mean just being alive. In the moment. It dawns on me now and then and I feel I'm getting a glimpse of it - but today; Wow. Once you've realized what you want YOUR life to be about it's all so clear. NOT less scary and challenging and probably full of mistakes and failures and trying again and again. But still - the question - and answer - is:

WHO are you doing it for? No, really - if you k n e w that people's opinion would be the exact same no matter what you did, said, showed or mastered - what would you do? Or maybe, what would you a t t e m p t? We can't all be popstars and famous writers. (I know, sad but true.) But some of us will probably be wondering and maybe somewhat regretful, for never having tried on the day we die. Whereas some, might just be smiling. :) I did. I tried. I succeeded! OR........? I did. I tried. I failed.

The difference?

One person will still be smiling whatever the outcome. :)

Cheers to summer, love, bike rides, deep happy thoughts and just being alive. It's a beautiful thing.

<3 /Å